Honestly, my story doesn't really start with music.
I had a pretty normal childhood. I was happy, energetic, and full of ideas. The kind of kid who wakes up with a smile every morning.
Then life got complicated.
The older I got, the more aware I became of people around me. Tryna figure out what they expected. What success was supposed to look like.
Somewhere along the way, I got really good at fitting in.
Or at least that's what I told myself.
I started making decisions based on who I thought I should be instead of who I actually was. Little by little, the distance between those two people got bigger.
By my early twenties, I had pretty much given up on most of the things that once mattered to me. Music included.
I was working, paying bills, doing all the adult things you're supposed to do. From the outside, it probably looked fine.
Inside, I felt completely disconnected from myself.
Alcohol had always been a problem for me. At some point, it became the solution too.
And for a while, that worked surprisingly well.
Or at least that's what I told myself.
At 23, I finally got sober. I needed something to fill the space that drinking had occupied for years. I picked music back up mostly as a distraction.
Turns out it wasn't a distraction.
It was the thing I'd been missing.
The more I wrote, the more I started recognizing myself again. Not the version I thought people wanted. Just me.
Gabzzy is the part of myself I've been hiding for all these years
I still don't have everything figured out. Honestly, I hope I never do. The questions are usually more interesting than the answers.
What I know now is this:
Giving up on music made me miserable.
Making it makes me feel alive.
So I'm done quitting.
Little Gabzzy
First Home studio
Behind Bars